[Grimmelkin] Saber

Coloring test, nothing too special this time, had fun though! Artoria!


The Dumb Computer.

So. This PC has caused me much grief, between needing certain parts replaced and then some.

My current issues are :
1 – Power Supply’s getting up there in years.
2 – CPU has some sort of problem. I’m fine on 4 cores, but being on 8 seems to turn my PC off randomly. Either it’s dying, or needs to be re-seated. I did notice some paste on the connectors at one point, so there’s a good chance we just need to do some cleaning. Not smart, but what can we do?
3 – Apparently, I learned of one of the most grave errors. The retard built this PC, he insisted on exchanging PCs at one point, and I’m left with this crapbox. How bad is it?

This was made as a “performace” and “gaming” PC. Powered by those fancy thermal coolant things. Of course, if you run out, and don’t replace it. What happens?

This PC tower wasn’t built for standard use. It has NO ventilation. In fact, I use a large fan because there’s no proper ventilation. Yeah, all fans lead air to go out.

I’m surprised my PC is as alive as it is today. That retard’s poor building made me believe it was fine, when it suffered many problems. In fact, I have to figure out a solution to keep my video card from getting too hot, while also dispersing heat produced from the CPU. It all literally bottles up in the middle of this computer, causing it to overheat.

So, what I have to do is figure out a DIY trick to move an outer-case fan to a specific location, in an attempt to cool down two areas, in hopes of finally being able to use a quiet set-up. It took me a while to realize how bad it is, because the computer cools down fairly fast after an overheat. Ironically. Tracking down the problem for months, and now, I have my solution.

More like.. how would I know all my fans blow air out after he “replaced” them? I didn’t have issues for a while because I didn’t play much games for the past two months.

Sheesh… I been wanting to do nothing but draw last month. I got fed up so much.

So… yeah… on Monday, we’ll begin tackling that. I need to come up with a possible case mod, but I’m an amateur with very poor craftsmanship, so it’ll be a shoddy DIY. I’ll have my boy do some possible rewiring, though there is a single case fan I need him to replace, and my fat hands means I can’t turn a screw-driver, making it moot unless I yank everything out.

Hopefully we’ll finally solve my PC’s problems. By that point, I’ll try pushing my PC to 5 or 6 cores, and replug the second video card in hopes of it all being fine. Sigh. Positioning, wind, science.

Overall Plans

So, the outlook for December is…

Drawing. We have a Holiday to celebrate and then some.

We started Tree of Savior and became obsessive about leveling due to how easy they made it, and are going to aim for a high point and then stop. Fortunately, we can only play for limited amount of times due to limited resources.

In December, I’ll be doing PS3 hacking and customizing, though I should really get to 3DS customizing first…

I haven’t had any time to actually touch Berseria and I’m still debating on how we’ll handle Zestiria…

Other than all that, I’m hoping to possibly sneak music in… there’s much I have to do, but so little time, apparently.

We’ll also be doing Switch stuff, apparently.
So.. 3DS, Switch, PS3, while my boy’s going to be going 3DS, Switch, PS4, Vita, due to Tokyo Xanadu. He’s hoping that Aksys does right on the PS4 version, but is doubtful. All Falcom fans are. Aksys just sucks. Fact. Plain FACT.

1 – Drawing
2 – Crossing legal boundaries
3 – Entering poverty which makes 2 ironic, due to hefty purchase.
5 – I hope to get music in. I feel out of tune.

In between -everything- is that I need to exercise and get excess flab off… which means every day, 30 minutes minimum of some form of simple routine. Which I’m already falling behind with. Because I’ve been typing. Because I’ve been reminiscing, and being hyped by having stationary emulation. I mean, there’s no real better joy than sitting at a console together and living the past, in the present. It’s some good quality bonding time between us.

Other than all that.. hum…. I don’t know.

I did learn that GameStop raised Sonic Colors’ price tag from $9.99 to $14.99. This is exactly why people hate GameStop. They literally control prices based on their whims. I wanted Sonic Colors earlier. In fact, I’m pretty damn sure I wanted it when it was $4.99.


[Grimmelkin] A New Journey

Another game, another dimension and another Nebby.
Hopefully everyone’s new journey through Alola proves to be as exciting as the first one.
Saying that. I still like the Sun and Moon’s Protagonist. Simple and effective design! Anyways.

I’ve been studying new, well… basic drawing techniques. Starting over from scratch! Hopefully it shows the results of my training!

Piracy and values, the 7th wonder of the world.

My motivations for why I feel the way I do about games, and why I hate things like “esports” and any type of social justice….

So, I’ll discuss piracy and the “damage” it actually does.

You know… these kids don’t even remember..
Games used to be budget friendly…

Games used to have “Greatest Hits” versions. Much like Nintendo’s selects, except LESS SELECTIVE, and more free/open. $19.99 for any “greatest hits” PS2 game you see. Big AAA titles, on a budget. THIS CURBS PIRACY. MORE SELECTS, WHY AREN’T POKEMON NINTENDO SELECTS?

Here’s my story and the unfolding of my conflicting morals. I know piracy is theft, but it’s hardly a theft compared. I also think about how one can gain profits, and how I wouldn’t be stealing in any way, if publishers genuinely wanted my petty money.

I grew to be indifferent when I had no “next-gen” consoles, and that I never would. I never expected to have a PS3 and be a part of the final years of it. The same with the 3DS, on top of that being hacked, and the fact every game I pirate tends to be a shitty piece o’ budget crap that wastes my time, and the fact I force myself to trudge through it.
Plus, one of the few actual purchases, Pokemon Sun, ended up being shallow and meaningless. I’m still ticked off, I wanted an “end all” version like how Omega Ruby and Alpha Sapphire is…. I didn’t get a DS until what, three years ago? We played Black/White together since I got an Acekard. Like I’m supporting gamestop scalping it at $30+…

People also forget this… if I wait 3 years and buy a game on sale at $9.99 from it’s original, let’s say, $39.99, who does the money go to and how does it actually help?

If I buy a NES, WHO GETS THE MONEY? Nintendo does not get the money.
“Stealing is stealing.”
Um, excuse me? People make arguments like “stealing is still wrong” and even used a car reference. That doesn’t work. A car was stolen in this household.

That car far exceeds any mount of “harmful piracy”. If even the used value was a minimum $2,400, on top of maintenance and repairs, it’d at least be a minimum of $5,000 – INCLUDING INSURANCE.

By blaming piracy, you’re comparing a $50 POSSIBLE NON PURCHASE, to a legitimate loss of $5,000.

I will NOT buy most games I touched, and I’ll gladly delete all save data and any records I have of those games I didn’t like. You want a game I’ll buy? Give me the level of care that Trails has provided.



So, I learned that e-sports is up for $ on the Olympic$.

“The basis for the argument was based on the intensity of training which competitive gamers underwent, ‘which may be comparable to athletes in traditional sports’.”

Comparative? People who play smash actually act like it’s a serious thing you can make a living off of. I don’t understand, because it IS just a game, it was made with the original idea of “smash”. NOT CASH.

I was originally leaving this excerpt for the end, but I figure it should be upfront…
Why would I ruin the context of what I’m doing and change the message I have to be more confusing? Because my main drive is the fact that, deep down, I love games. My reasons will be listed for anyone who would give a single salt grain.

In the end, preferences aside, people will try to defend something as they might, just because they want to believe. Oh, effort is put into it, therefore it is similar! Contort as you may, try as you might.. but that’s all it is, contortions. The true value of games is something of a massive variable, but they are something that isn’t “serious”. They are worlds and worlds, made by people who care. Worlds full of life, imagination put into action, given life. Originally formless, but now something that’s rife with life.

The tales they tell, the life forms that exist.. the narrative of the world’s environment, the lore, the history one can weave… that’s what games ARE. They’re OPEN.

An open book with a near infinite amount of pages to write. So many pages that games end up incomplete sometimes because of that. How can one fill them all within a time frame? What goes missing? Games are amazing, they are life, but they also aren’t life. The moment of pause to separate fantasy and reality is necessary.


Hypocrisy will be the end of me!

Seriously, I spent so much time thinking and ranting on drivel instead of being productive. I have drawings I want to do/try, I have much I want to do/try.
Instead, I’m feeding some non-existent troll.

Jesus… It’s as bad as Kevin Smith, that fat Hollywood troll.. I despise him with a passion, and want to breakdown his words still… I’m very ticked off that people praised his bullshit towards another teen. People who do selfies have egos/have growing narcissism the more they do it. I know, I have a hint of that/had a hint of it, it comes and goes.

Seriously… the lack of morals and values, but before I speak any more, I should stop myself…
I need to draw. Or something. Just a little, at least.

I’ve got a good set up going, music I can relax and enjoy, and whatnot. A relaxed state of mind is all I’m missing. I have hints of frustration left over that’s slowly trickling into my thoughts of drawing/my abilities, but I’m hoping to shake that off with some music.

For the week, it’ll be Pokemon this and that. Ride the popularity! or something.

I can’t shake off the feeling. I waste time writing about retards. Sure, it helps me remain sane and keeps my expectations of people in check, but during it, I feel like there’s no hope for people and worse. I do regret it, but the benefits are persistent. I get to look back and then.. together, we’d laugh about things involving all sorts of trashy people.

I mean, I want to believe it’s fine to let it out, it’s better than stabbing someone, right?

Other than all that, I’m feeling better… we’ve got a full week ahead of us, and Pokemon to possibly speed through.

I dunno what else to add. I guess, today’s phrase will be.. “rainbow farts”.

There. Rainbow farts.

Musically Motivated!

So, Sonic Forces’ music disappointed me with it’s over-synth nature and the obsessive need to have “retro” music for classic Sonic despite it being perfectly fine in Generations. Plus there’s a shared synth that’s everywhere. The main theme’s not bad…

But, then, I got hold of music from Mario Odyssey. I don’t have a Switch, but the music of Odyssey makes me want a Switch, because I love nothing more than idling in a game because of it’s music, and on top of that, I also love roaming around a world, thinking of the people who made the game/etc. Someone had to make the area I’m standing on, and it’s beautiful, what was their emotion when completing it? Etc, etc.

It reminds me of when I first got the Sonic Colors soundtrack, and listened to that obsessively when it first came out, Tropical Resort being my favorite. Super Mario Odyssey’s music is pretty much Colors/Unleashed/Adventure.

Apparently Forces does have an actual piano theme, but it’s located as…. Theater. Yay.

Anyways, I ended up practicing and completing and copying down the notes for the 8-bit version of the Honeylune Ridge Escape song, which quickly became one of my favorites.
Mario getting more songs with lyrics would be nice, and having them is amazing, because it feels… right. Plus, unlike Sonic, we had a relevant character sing. A character’s voice actually sang, isn’t that cool?!

I actually got most of the main melody of the 8-bit down, so my practice is paying off!
I’m learning slowly, step by step. On top of that, the songs themselves make me think about it and wonder… where do I want to go, what do I want to do? There’s so many different answers, I feel motivated and have been using Super Mario Odyssey’s soundtrack to boost that motivation. I just can’t help but feel good.


Tidbit of Info

Haven’t written anything in quite awhile.

Saying that, I’ve been drawing nonstop. Whether they’re uploadable or not is dependent on my skill.

Especially because…

Recently I’ve been reworking my basics. Restarting from scratch while coming up with how I could make my work better. Hopefully I’ll be able to come up with pieces that I can continue to be proud of.

It’s always motivating to see support flow in. Whenever I share my works to certain places all I receive is negativity, oddly enough. Doesn’t really bother me too much, and they’ve always been humbling. So the support that I do get is very invigorating.

As for my learning. I’ve basically resorted to learning how to draw from square 1 again and am learning how to make outlines. Unfortunately I’ve somewhat lost the creativity I’ve gained, but I feel like this minor setback will create a grounds for the future. You see, I’ve never learned squat with drawing. I’ve just practiced repeatedly from what was visible. My eyes are uneven in vision since half of my left eye’s sight is black due to astigmatism. This means that I desperately look for a fail-safe since my eye can’t be trusted with things.

I genuinely believe that I’m improving. Also I believe anyone has the capacity to improve.

Flexibility to receive teachings.
Judgement to figure out when you’ve reached a road block.
Acceptance of failures.

They all lead to an amazing thing called “Progress”!